I think that is an amazing quote. I too have never been alone and I know that that fear of being alone lead to some of the behaviors that she did not like in me. When God hands you lemons all you can do is make lemonade and the same is true here. All we can do is embrace being alone for a while and learn from it.
I think that is great that you have stuck to being dark for this long. I know in the long run it will strengthen you and he will have appreciated it. I want to caution you to something that caught me completely off guard. The idea of space and time that they need is based on their definition not yours. When I got a dialogue with her again she told me that she just needed space. I thought “are you kidding me I just gave you 6 weeks of space, no contact, no clinglyness, nothing but what you asked for.” I tell you this because what you have been doing is awesome, but he may not acknowledge it or even see it. He will say he needs space right up until he doesn’t, so don’t let that throw you off track when he comes back next week.
When he gets back is when you are going to have to work extra hard. I am not trying to be discouraging but rather empower you with the knowledge that I stumbled to obtain.
Enough of that stuff. How was your week back at work and your weekend? Are you back into some of the GALS that you were doing before you left? Written any songs lately? How about running? I have slacked on that one my self with this heat wave that’s just nuts.
Me 27, W26 T-12 M-4 SEP 4/29/08 Holding 250 miles Awaiting Support Current
