Quoting lostlove: who the hell knows..a reflex action is all I can say...a hopeless reflex..a cry for help..a please stop me from doing this..
wow... that's powerful ll and it's a powerful amount of control to give someone i think i need to respect the gift, no wait... i do respect the gift and that's why i've been keeping my thoughts to myself, I don't want to hurt H. What I learned yesterday is that If I don't want to hurt H, I need to talk to him, honestly and openly about how I feel. When it's good and when it's bad.
I'd like for H to see me doing that as a gift, a token of me, an offering... bagh...
sometimes a gift wrapped box of poo! uncertainty and self doubt make me keep a lot to myself
