It clicked that I have 100% full control of my life. I have been focusing hard on loosing my kids 50% of the time. I realize now that I have full control of the kids 50% of the time and W isn't able to undermine me.
Cool ! Although I don't know how you ever have "full" control of kids. (teasing).
M 19 years, MC for 8 months, DB'd for 8 months 4 kids; 18, 15, 14, & 10 I was never meant to be a doormat. It took me years of therapy to become assertive enough to stop his abuse.