Shiny, Sage, KAW,

Thanks for the responses. At such stressful times, to get feedback is an incredible PMA boost.

Shiny, I'm sorry that you feel you and CJ are even close to this point. What the two of you have seems like a dream to me. But, since not getting what I needed out of the relationship helped get this ball rolling in the first place, I can understand.

KAW, why are men so thick? I find it incredibly annoying that most men have no grasp of subtelty. You all have to be knocked across the head with a concept in order to understand! Anyway, like I said, I hope he really understands that I am serious about this.

Sage, you're right. Focusing on the positive really does help the PMA. So, here goes:

3 Positives from yesterday:

1.) H gave me a sweet goodbye kiss before leaving for work.
2.) While giving me and D2 a hug, called us "my ladies".
3.) Called me to let me know he would be late and not to bother with dinner.

I already gave him a thank you today. I asked him to give me a call around 10:00 this morning from work to talk about this weekends plans and he did. This may not seem like a big deal, but I know he is super busy at work this week and to stop and call me did require special effort which I thanked him for.

How's that?

As for this weekend, I'm dropping off my kids by my dad's house and he is taking them to the lake house for the weekend. H and I have a "no kids allowed" b-b-que tomorrow and dad offered to take them. So, H is golfing in the morning and I'm going with a girlfriend for a manicure/pedicure and a quick look at some new model homes. Should be nice to have some time for myself and some alone time for H and I.

I'll let you know how it goes.

Erin

"A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable, but more useful than a life spent doing nothing." -George Bernard Shaw