WOW!! progress w H? Keeping my PMA

[pisces9]

Hi Chris and Neil~ thanks so much for sheering me on :0)
i do feel good about my decision- and it turns out my bro may not be able to go after all- he is very last minute...so its better for me all around..thanks for saying that...

also- my H called very late after he was supposed to be there yesterday and said he was sorry 3 separate times- then he wrote me another big email about house stuff and this and that....

so my expectations are trying to get the best of me- bc i wish he would ask me to do something- anything- with him....i think he is retreating after he opened up so much to me last week...so he said he wasnt ready to hang out or cme over , etc that night..i still think he has a lot to process...i know there is nothing i can do but i wish there was a way to make this go faster- and at the same time ti dont want it to go too fast- i know you guys know what i mean!

so i ahve to respect that and wait....ugh. i guess i want some reassurance- and im not sure his actions are giving me that right now- although he did reach out to me and apologize, etc.

oh- and Neil- the other night he did ask how i was doing- that was a big step- before he would just say i hope you are ok...

wait and watch, GAL, PMA, yada yada...just kidding!