hey all just checking in, it's a very humid slightly sprinkling Saturday morning here, and hubby has gone off to work an extra job. S is still asleep, so I have, except for all the animals, the living room to myself. It looks and sounds like the peaceable kingdom in here with all the cats and the dog sprawled out together asleep, and the baby birds on the porch chirping for mama.
But, anyway, I just called the "secret" cell phone number, and the voice said it was temporarily unavailable, so I don't know what that means, and I think I dialed the right number. Maybe he has let it go finally, but who knows??
He has been acting so much better, and even has said sorry to me when he realizes he has said something mean or rude to me. He calls me out on my behavior, too, so when he does I tell him I'm sorry and sometimes we talk out stuff now, so I hope those are all positives. We still sleep in the same bed, (when for years and years we had separate bedrooms) and are better able to talk out our problems.
I think he COULD be feeling closer to me, and therefore not as close to ow, if ow is even still in the picture, if I can believe what he told me about how fast ow went back to her ex-H, when he (MY H) broke it off. But as we all know, we can only believe half, I think, of what they say, or is it NONE of what they say??? Must read the books again...
I have to say that this site, as well as the books, especially certain ones, have really helped me to stay on what seems to be the right track, and to keep me sane. Of course, it's the people here who have been my biggest help, and have inspired me to stay the course, I have and still do sit here, barely able to see through the tears, and write my feelings here, and read what others write, and cry over their situations, the ones who have had an end come to their M. I had such high hopes for them and when the final bomb fell, it hurt my heart for them, and still does.
I don't know the ultimate outcome for my M, but I know I have the support of the folks here whichever way the wind blows.
And, Deauxlie, you have been so kind to come and check on me. THANKS!!
