Sorry that I haven't been around these few days, D17 is mostly at home and using the comp and I'm very busy with students.
Still no admissions news :(.
I've been talking to H, he called two times and I've called once. I have this weird feeling that something is not quite right and absolutely nothing to prove it. He talks to me as if fullfilling his obligation. I hated it when he was drinking and raving, but at least he was expressing his feelings. Right now I'm under the impression that he doesn't have any feelings at all.
I called him today in the morning and he wasn't there. I had something important to tell him, so I kept calling. When he answered the phone, I knew (ok, I assumed ) that he was seeing OW today, even though I don't think that he is back on track with her. Since it was my decision not to demand NO CONTACT yet, I cannot accuse him of dishonesty, but I really wish he'd tell me what's going on. I literally had to pinch myself not to ask him directly (I started, then turned it into something else). I'm so tired of guessing games!
And so much for not thinking about OW !
Just had to vent again.
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
) that he was seeing OW today, even though I don't think that he is back on track with her. Since it was my decision not to demand NO CONTACT yet, I cannot accuse him of dishonesty, but I really wish he'd tell me what's going on. I literally had to pinch myself not to ask him directly (I started, then turned it into something else). I'm so tired of guessing games!
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