W2M, I do think seeing the C is a good idea. If that one is too busy or whatever, maybe you can see another C temporarily or talk to friends and find another one sooner? I think you may be depressed and that is something you should try to work on first really. Before worrying about your marriage and everything. I found once my depression was better (I do therapy and meds) that everything else kind of worked out for me, I was able to see things more clearly, know what is right (or wrong) for me, etc. I do know how tough it is to get into a C, at least in my town, it took me a few weeks also, but the ones that were going to take a while to get into see I didn't bother with. Karen
