Gosh - I am falling way behind on my thread and everyone else's. I have received so much support here and really appreciate all the self improvement egged on by all the folks here. It has been so good for me! I dont feel like I am a very good friend here anymore- I feel overwhelmed with all the news and everyone's progress or changes I missed. I guess some day I will not come on the site anymore- kind of sad really!!! I am promising myself that I will stop in on all the fun here today.!

As far as me and H, H is staying over 90% of the time this week and last. Almost to the point where we are assuming he is staying, like in last night, and we just turned in! Please see H's email from last week. I think I made him feel bad in my search to resolve the PA. H is anxious at times but want to be with me he says. I found myself really angry a couple of times this week- almost catlike posessiveness when I think of how OW took from me and H I think this is pretty psycho huh? Obsessive. I still struggle....I told H I would get him a list of things I want to change before he thinks about moving in again. But he sort of has and without any announcement or acknowledgement. No decisiveness surrounding it. No commitment that I know about. We are going to take a trip to VEgas just the 2 of us Nov 2- sort of an anniversary trip although H has not said that specifically. I am very hopeful we get that together!!
We have scheduled a family ski trip in FEB- that is a commitment I guess! I just keep struggling with my own ghosts and resentment or blame I put on H for introducing me to them!!

Shay

Thanks for being a good friend - especially Pam!