I was just reading some of BFM's old posts and here's quote from Cinders from a year ago:

Quote:
"If what one finds is made of pure matter it will never spoil. And one can always come back If what you had found is only a moment of light, like the explosion of a star you would find nothing on your return" (The Alchemist, by Paulo Coelho)


I just finished that book and it was very thought provoking. This passage struck me too when I read it.

H went to get a campsite for me but they were all full \:\( It was a lot of trouble for him and I told him how much I appreciated his trouble and how sorry I was that it was a waste. He suggested I go very early in the am to see if I could get "us" a site for Sat night. Hmmm, how did it go from my camping trip to ours?

Anyway, H was supposedly golfing w/ buddies tonight (not sure if I believe him). He asked if he could call me after. I said okay. I think he won't call, not that I'm really worried about it. I told myself (I might have even posted this) that I don't trust him so I won't even try. It actually has made me feel more calm now that I've given myself permission not to try to trust H. Interesting...

So I'll go try to get a site for Sat night (one nite in the woods is better than none).

FA

What does not destroy me, makes me stronger.

FA:43, H:42
D:7
M:10 yrs, T:24 yrs
EA:?, PA:1/06
S:3/07
EA/PA ongoing
Aborted attempt to move home 07/08