New to this forum and need help..

[tmarie]

Well I made it through another day... A huge upside was that I got 2 letters from my son... That was SUCH A BLESSING. He sound so good. Its comforting to know that he is doing well...

I try not to read too much into things, but I think I caught H trying to spend time with me... He came into our room while I was listening to Michele's KLA program (I had ear phones on, but he knew what I was listening to...just sat on the bed playing with the puppy.. chatted... re-read sons letter.. I distance myself today, I am thinking that had something to do with it...

H even cooked dinner for himself and D14.. I wasn't hungry and he insisted (he knew I wasn't feeling well)..The funny thing is....I went to the grocery store (he forgot I was going) and so did he ... we both picked up dinner... I picked up Burgers and Turkey Bugers... So did he... we have enough for a party now....

I haven't told him yet but I made plans to go out with my sister tomorrow (she is single). Being that she lives in the city, 45 miles away, I will spend the night there..

distancing, GAL..creating that aura of mystery...things are changing, I can see this happening, but I think it is important that I don't get comfortable, things are not ok..

You know through all of this.. the Dbing, Its like we start out on this quest, making these changes to "get back" the one we have lost, at times, it seems insincere.. but I noticed that as I do these things to show him that I have bettered myself, I have enjoyed not only the outcome of those changes, but the feeling I get by fulfilling the needs and desired of my H....

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