Thank you to everybody for the really really nice comments.
I'm off to bed, I take H to the airport at 5 am. He'll be gone 5 days. This is the first time EVER I don't want him to go out of town. Always before, I couldn't wait. I counted the days til he left town. I needed the space & time to decompress. I wanted the bed to myself. I wanted the break from sexual pressure. I wanted the break from the tension in the house. That's all gone now.
For the first time in our marriage, my bed will feel "wrong" with him not in it.
hugs
M 19 years, MC for 8 months, DB'd for 8 months 4 kids; 18, 15, 14, & 10 I was never meant to be a doormat. It took me years of therapy to become assertive enough to stop his abuse.
