You will find love again, and when you do, I believe you will have the kind of connection you had/have with your wife - and probably even better. It's hard to imagine the possibility, but I believe it will happen for you. You have so much to give to a relationship, and sadly, your wife couldn't accept your love along with the ups and downs of everyday life. To me, being married, is all about the ups and downs - being there to support one another through the rough spots and to cherish and enjoy the good spots. Some people cut and run when a little bump in the road comes along, and in the long run, that type of person will always lose out.
I'm sorry you're in mourning. I hope this phase moves quickly. Please don't stop posting. I always enjoy reading your thoughts - whether or not you think a post is crappy.
Hang in there, friend.
M: 37 H: 36 Married: Aug 13, 2004 Decision to Divorce: July 20, 2008 Reconciled: September 2008 Current: Ambivalence