Sounds like you're doing a good job. I had he advantage of time, distance and a life-altering experience. Not everyone can have that, and it must be absolutely draining for you at this point. I do not wantmy current W. back Period. I cannot live like an unwanted pet anymore, and I refuse to do that. I hope you can somhow buy the distance and time you need to weather whatever storm comes your way. Is there any more evidence that she might be seeing someone else? I remember the secretive conversations from a while back. Infuriating, but all part of the mix.
Not having the FEAR of divorce has been very helpful to me, but it is unforgivable that she would do this to my kids. Hnag tough. Enjoy the show.