I like the frequency of your H's sleep overs!!! He's sure a lot more comfortable at home than when I first started posting to you!
Quote: I thought about writing down everything I have been through in a journal- maybe no one will ever see it but maybe some day H can see it and I can feel understood. This is what seems to be an underlying issue for me
Do it! Even if it's never read by anyone else, it's worthwhile. I have about 200+ pages of journalling from Aug to about March. I journal more sporadically now, my bb posts serve that purpose at this point.
Quote: H is very jealous of MF, that isnt really a friend of mine much. Especially if it comes between H and me but kind of crazy, he makes a big deal about this when he had the A!!
CJ was that way too, Shay. I clearly remember the night last fall when we went out to a bar and he said to me before we left "go ahead...dance with anyone you want to" (not something he would have said pre OW)
So I DID...I had a ball!!! Two girlfriends and I teased a 19 yearold some, who then threw his arm around me on our way out....Well CJ pushed him away and laid claim to me.
This was WHILE he was with OW!!! (I didn't know that).
And after it all came out, CJ was convinced I was flirting and finding a replacement on the bb!!!
A lot of that is classic projection....if THEY could do it!!! Why not us???
Actually, Shay, I think that a bit of jealousy on their part may be a good thing (too much is NEVER good!)...
After all, people are not jealous of something they don't care about losing, are they?
