Thanks Pam- hope you are OK- hang in there- be mysterious and confident if it kills you! I havent been on the board in a few days so have to catch up.
This is a long race- starts at Miami University and goes over the state line into Indiana and back- kind of crazy! I just take it slow and have fun . It gives me a goal to aim for, kind of keeps me sane! I ran a painful 10 very hot miles yesterday on my day off and ran the kids around most of the night- soccer and basketball.
A couple of things happened this weekend- first of all, my kids all spent the night at friends houses and H and I were alone!~ so were my brother and SIL so we went out with them Friday night and had fun. Then as we got home, H stripped an hopped in bed rather than go to sisters or a drive or whatever! This had a really good feeling! Then on Saturday we took the kids to a festival and H put them to bed got annoyed at their antics and asked if he could take my car for a drive to cool off. I read a little and turned out the lights - H comes back and gets in again!!!!!! No notice, I dont ask (should i?) and we fall asleep. Sunday he goes into work and comes home- Me and D7 are sleeping in our king bed and I have a huge smile- H liked it but suspicious about if its Ok to come back . Last night H goes to sisters and comes back at midnight saying he couldnt sleep- she was noisy. So I dont know if this was an experiment or H saw his C again. Should I ask?

I thought about writing down everything I have been through in a journal- maybe no one will ever see it but maybe some day H can see it and I can feel understood. This is what seems to be an underlying issue for me. And venus and mars talks about it I think.
that is about it- we had an argument we worked through. H is very jealous of MF, that isnt really a friend of mine much. Especially if it comes between H and me but kind of crazy, he makes a big deal about this when he had the A!!
Shay