Thanks Jeanine- guess they act and react to what is in their head and this is how they solve the problem?
Hope you are OK, once again I get behind on.
As far as my sitch, I am getting very impatient and letting my PMA drop, H notices. Sunday, I felt very down and in depression- I may have just been sick, but I kept busy, did stuff in the garden and did not blame H or anyone else and tried to be pleasant. I just want things to progress and for the possiblility of H being in touch with OW to leave my brain. I dont think he is and I asked him if he had been "good" and he says yes. I can never tell if he is lying but I guess I believe him. He says that it just may take a while and to go slowly in so many words. We saw Pirates of the Carribean and went to dinner with the family Sat night. Loved the movie!! Johnny Depp is really good and a favorite of mine anyway. PG13 so my 6 year old was a little freaked by the scary stuff but still liked it. So some good stuff that is for sure but I am finding myself focusing on the bad- I know not good.
So here goes....good stuff...Sunday night we are talking to some neighbors, H is getting ready to go to work and someone calls to tell us our new jetski is sinking in Tenn! H freaks about how he cant take monday off to go down and so busy at work and gets very agitated. I come up with some plans of action, which he appreciates and goes to work, returns at midnight after a little work and a trip to walmart for supplies. We get up at 4 am arrive at 8 am, save the jetski and have a wonderful day! We had breakfast at the marina, skinny dipped, good sex! and worked on the cabin. (The girls stayed with my parents) We communicated a little better but still not great. H thnked me for going with him and left last night exhausted to sleep at sisters' yuck! A little down this morning- bad luck a leak in my kitchen ruined the new wood floor, big insurance issue related to builders mistake. H is taking care of it. But basically a beautiful new wood plank floor is warped and buckled since Friday! oh well, I am letting this stuff bother me. I am really struggling with communicating with H. I joke a little, ask him about himself, dont pry, tell him stories but not enough, and just cant get there. H holds back a little about things. He will talk about work a lot but will not go to subjects that bother me. On Sat night he said he would "come back" to sleep at home after he went out to calm himself. Before that he was getting a backrub and watching TV with me. I said arent you calm? He says he is never calm and "OK, let's drop the subject" This really bothered me for a few days. Crazy huh?
Sorry this is long and stream of consciousness! but that is how it is for lots of us isnt it??
Shay