You impress me the way that you have chosen to stay out of 'spouses' dillusional thought process, how a person can say nothin can show of us as a couple, yet you have children together how can 1 person be running so fast to get away from reality that they forget reponsibility. You on the other hand have said (i will use my own word here) how you dread having to do things with spouse when it came to the kids, but made the decision if it's the kids then I will put my feelings aside and do it. I don't want to but I will that my dear butterfly speaks volumes of where you are while on your journey of self awareness.
Each day you gain IMHO more understanding and respect for your self and know you are deservant of more, you have much to give and give you shall when it's your time, patiences. Your wings are almost spreading to their fullest enjoy the flutter as you embark on your new flights each day and embrace the good and the bad cause you are in control of you!
