Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
The C really seemed to like the messages/drawings on the mirror, and the idea of adding questions.
But, she is really pessimistic about W actually wanting to change. But, I think she is realistic. W has been like this forever, it's just that I have finally realized that it is not all my fault! I told the C that I didn't see how things could work if W didn't go to IC. She agreed, but we both don't think it is likely. W is strong, she is determined, she is independent. Her stong points are exactly the same things that will make it hard to get her to go to C. I am thinking of something like, "C has really helped me. Maybe you should try it." Not about anything specifically, just to try to get her in the door. I don't expect a result from that, though.
I agreed with C that I don't really expect W to change, but I said I have to give her the chance. But I also expressed my concern that things could change for a while, but then fall back to where we are now. Especially since it's really already happened once. You know, that is a really scary thought.
I also expressed to C that I don't feel like I have anything to lose at this point. Basically, what more can W do? C said I was desensitized. I guess that's another word for detached! I said that I really don't try as hard to please W anymore, there's nothing in it for me. Maybe that's selfish, but it is the truth. C said a R is supposed to be a reciprocal sort of thing. (I think that was the word she used, but you know what I mean.)
I'm sure there was more, but that seems like the high points. Things look a lot better for me, not so much for the M, really. I'm going to push more and more, in the near future, and see what happens. Something has to change!
But I also expressed my concern that things could change for a while, but then fall back to where we are now. Especially since it's really already happened once.
Hmm, but things also were better for a while. So, if you could get to that point, it would be learning how to keep the good changes going, which is far easier than turning things around right now IMHO.
Originally Posted By: dry_heat
I'm going to push more and more, in the near future, and see what happens. Something has to change!
And something will! I am glad you are making ripples!
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
Jeff, I think you should just keep moving forward. Like you said, you have nothing to lose. You never know what might happen. Remember start with a beginners mind, no expectations, no preconceived thoughts. Just go for it!
Ok, so now I have to just remind you of something. I cant help it. I am just going to nudge you into getting back into cleaning out your bedroom. Two thoughts - one, your w said something about the smell from the kitty litter in there- not good and two - you want to make it a room she might want to come into one day - ya know?
So, when you have time, have at it. Get rid of stuff and clean, make it all nice and neat and smelling good.
Ok, now I'll stop. Oh and back to food. please (sorry, I like to eat). Can we have some ice cream, fresh, cold watermelon and chocolate. Thanks.
OK, I'll clean the bedroom! It is pretty cluttered again. I think it may be a defense mechanism.... While it is like that I don't have to worry that she won't come in there because of me! It's the room!
that's really funny Lola!