Wow- bad night for me last night! I had a drink with some coworkers waiting for H and D13, D6 to come down to go to the Reds game. D13 forgot my clothes so I wore H's shorts and D's shoes. H made the comment that the shorts made me look pregnant and maybe I could wear another pair- I proceeded to let this bother me to the point I was upset with myself and beating myself up about my looks. This is silly but is a product of living through the PA. H asked what was wrong and I told him I felt ugly - he sat there blaming himself and then put his arm around me saying absolutely not. D6 was worried about me but I think the beer and med didnt mix too well and threw me into the well! H was worried and mentioned had I given up on him? I didnt have my wedding ring on - knuckles were too fat in the morning to get it on so I switched to my g-mother's ring for the day. He said he noticed and I explained. This morning I told him I had it on and he said it was OK that he just noticed it- kind of non chalent like! So, on one hand he cared on the other, I shouldnt have mentioned it. He wouldnt have hardly noticed in the past so I think that is a big step. He struggled with comforting me and did a good job- siad he loved me and we parted ways downtown so he could go to his sister's. He called me at home then showed up as promised to have a "sleepover" around midnight. He was sick and feverish but it was nice to know he was next to me. We hugged this morning and he called a few times. H is taking off with the kids and took them to the museum. I also told him I was stressed about going to the lake - whether we were or not! H suggested me going down and he could maybe join me on Sat. I love this idea but D6 has a party. Thinking of having her miss it! So...long story and feeling a little like I lost my PMA. Shay
