Good to see you make the move here! I hope this means a bit of mental shift for you as well. As Ellie was mentioning, how about a little more for Shay and Shay alone? What is one thing you could do today that would be just for you? Not for kids, not for H, just for YOU! Search your feelings, find something that is just you. It is OK to take a break from everything else and just enjoy yourself.