Mulesqb - Can the sun shine on a donkey's a$$?

[mulesqb]

Thanks Kelli - hope you are doing well also. If I was into babysteps - there have been many lately as far as she and I are concerned. I have been trying to hold her in the morning in bed like old times - I always ask though - is it ok if I hold you? She has said yes and usually stays for about 15 minutes before pulling away. This morning she stayed for a very long time. Then she woke and spoke to me for about 15 minutes. Then she asked if I wanted a cup of coffee and she got in the car and went to DD before I took the kids to camp.

I was supposed to take my S10s team to the batting cages tonite. She asked if we could have pizza together instead - because it's been baseball every night. So I'll get my asst coach to do it. We also talked this morning about things she can do with the kids - she said there is nothing - she doesn't like anything they are into and they don't like anything she is into. I just threw out there that maybe she should give them a chance - I know they are dying to do anything with her. Anyway - mentioned playing tennis with them and she said that could be good but how about we do that as a family?? I said ok. - Now that the weekend is here the neighbors will be back involved and she'll want me there every step of the way. i can guarantee that they will be on my back deck tonite. My W thinks the neighbor and I are very funny when we are together. She told me again this morning that she is having a very hard time being around the kids.

As everyone knows though the roller coaster is just illogical. When she started the whole sep talk she said she couldn't be without her kids - now she has absolutely nothing to do with them and they know it and act out. Then she behaves like the kids are terrible for the way they treat HER. She sees the changes - but she is so self absorbed right now. I don't need her to acknowledge them - I'm ok in that regard.

Thanks for the encouragement - I'm here for the long haul - but do have the occasional self pity day. I'm back on track again!