It has been sometime since I posted, I am still around and reading, but I don't post to others much, and I feel bad for that as I received so much help and support when I was going through the worst of it! Sometimes I feel I am not one to be supporting others, I still struggle with my feelings, and somedays still find it so hard not to say I want out! I have found a C that I like and will be going to my 2nd session today...so I am hoping that it will help. I find myself very withdrawn from my H, although he is trying so hard, and being wonderful...I am not sure what is stopping me in reconnecting with him. The other night my D16 finally let out some anger she has been harbouring towards both of us, and told us alittle about how she had felt when we were in the worst of it, I had said to her to talk to me anytime, but she didn't feel she could, and to be honest it was very eye opening, and humbling...I hope it drove it home some more to H the damage he caused by his actions, and will stop him from straying again!
I is such a long process to recover from this, and I know in the end it will be worth it!
Me - 44 H - 44 M - 19yrs together - 23yrs D16 S8 EA/PA - Bomb Oct20/06 Jan 8/07 Feb 01/07 Jul 15/07 H still @ home Recovered!
