haunted by memory of Ow

[LuvMyHusband]

Hi E,
Yes, I have had past relationships. There is a big difference between keeping a picture of an ex and keeping a picture of someone you cheated on your spouse with. My H has been D before, he had pictures of his ex for several years. No biggie. But keeping a picture of someone he cheated on me with is NOT going to happen. It is most definitely not the same thing. I'm a little different, I was married before too and I never wanted to keep pictures. I just didn't want to.

What bothers me is that my H seems to think that this would never have happened if I hadn't looked. I don't know how his thinking can be so skewed. He just doesn't seem to take responsiblity that if he hadn't done it, this wouldn't be happening.

I keep telling myself that he did choose me and that's what matters. He did do something the other day that helped. Before he had the PA with this woman, he had an EA with another woman over the phone and net. This woman is psycho. Seriously. He hasn't talked to her in months or emailed her but she still keeps seems to try to get him to communicate with her. I also think she may be trying to find out information about us. She set up an email account and then IM'ed him a couple of months ago. He didn't respond. Then she tried emailing him, nothing there either. Last Sunday I get a text on my cell phone from this person stating "looking for your hubby, LMAO". I blew it off but showed it to my H. What's scary is how did she get my number? He certainly wouldn't have given it to her. Two days later she emails him from her known account (it went to spam) and asked "just wanted to know if you were alive and kicking". He deleted it without responding. I would hate to think what she would do if she knew where we lived.

Anyway, I am doing a little better. He hugged me and told me that I have nothing to worry about and that he loves me. This is what I want from him.

Have a good day all.