WAW is full steam ahead

[LosingSunshine]

Thx IMT. That is my thought too but I have told her numerous times just let me know the day and I don't need the details. Plus, last night she brought up how she has been telling me but when I go out I say nothing except that I am going out and i'll be back later. She was also pretty curious last week when she came home from work and found out I spent the afternoon golfing with colleagues and didn't tell her. The curiosity is there just not strong enough yet.

As far as keeping myself together, I have 2 previous kids to stay strong for and the fact that we had somewhat of a SSM has made detaching easy. I haven't detached as much as I need to but enough to hold up okay but I do have my moments.

What I am finding difficult to do is moving from desperate to save my M to accepting and focusing on me, my kids and detaching further. It's hard but i'll get there.