Dancing With Myself

[redhottie]

H has done some of the snow and I have done some. D15 tried helping during our March blizzard. H cut the grass once or twice in the spring, then he bought me a new lawn mower. Last weekend I spent hours cleaning up the backyard. I trimmed the bushes earlier this week and I take care of the gardens. Garden is a hobby and I'll miss my flowers. At least I will be able to dig up the ones I want and take them with me. The bad thing is I have painted two rooms in the last month. At least the Ds will still be spending time here, so I don't feel that I did that work for nothing.

Right now I feel exhausted. It has been an emotionally draining day. D15 was very upset in the afternoon and I sent H a text to let him know. H called her and said they would talk tonight. They didn't. D10 got upset about the big D after H left tonight. She brought up that there is no reason to get married when people don't love each other forever. I told her I still love her dad but we can't seem to make each other happy. Her response was we must not love each other because the things you love make you happy. So if we love each other why are we getting divorced. Sent H another text asking WTF am I supposed to tell her and he said tell her that two people can love each other but not make each other happy. Good thing I see my T tomorrow.