New to this forum and need help..

[tmarie]

You sound so much like me its scary...do you find it ironic how many people on this web site have so many similarities? The lack of communication on both sides, it's like there is something in the water... what have we been drinking all our lives?

My day overall was great.. Picked up my car and H & I went to workout, made dinner together, ate together... then he disappears for a few minutes, I don't think he realizes I notice those things. I can't be sure but of course my heart is telling me he is calling/texting her.. or she him. I can feel him pull just a little bit away.. Makes my heart hurt... but again, my DBing is working... I am here on my laptop, sitting on the sofa... H is here on his laptop, sitting on the love seat... She is a thousands of miles away, and he is sleeping with me tonight... thinking of it that way helps me cope.. she can fantasize about him, but he is still Making Love to me... I feel that, he feels it too, his heart and his head are just confused... I may have made mistakes, and may still make some, but I am becoming the person I want to be, and the W he needs me to be... This terrible situation I helped create, could be the worst/best situation of my life. I will be forever changed and with all I am learning my future relationships will be the better for it.

Yours too...

tmarie