WAW is full steam ahead

[LosingSunshine]

SC, thanks again for stopping by and offering your perspective...it is truly appreciated!

Now, I have to agre with DHs
last post. Fantasy, sure. Would I actually committ probably not because i'll be running like hell.

I guess the question back to you is how do I bring this up? I know it can't do any more damage as she'l be contacting the mediator to set a date sometime in the next few days.

Us it a dealbreaker? Probably not as I feel this would be easier to cope with and heal from...I may be fooling myself of course...but she is just so firm on not slowing down. And then that means trying to rebuild post D and who knows when and I just can't wait forever, can I and should I?

Now on the flip side of all of this, she has been unable to read me because she has entered every convo thinking I would explode and I haven't. She is confused about how I have been the last three weeks because of my changes.

I am glad I acted as if tonight because the talk ws basically a recap of last night with the added flavor of her thinking I was going to screw her over because how calm and collected I acted. So I had a lot of reassuring to do and told her the ball was in her court. She has control not me and she agreed.

I am out right now and she'll be going out later with the girls if I don't come to late. And what pisses me off is she wants to spend time with the kids but she is so worn out she naps on the couch after dinner until she leaves. Just irritating.

Wan't able to be dark tonight because of the convo but still trying here. Just sticking to DBing, seeking any and all advice and preparing for the inevitable.
Chris