You are hitting all the right bases. You certainly "GAL" and are not moping looking in your rear view mirror. Physical activity is HUGE. When I was in Iraq, I worked out in the weight room with a 30 year old captain who played defensive end for VMI. No alcohol and 7 days a week in the weight room develop an incrdible tranquility. The vactions sound great. I have been here for about three years. The success stories are ALWYS those who have let go, moved on and really believed that they got a new life. Like many of us, you do not want the W. back that you currently have.