Update......... Strange, Wife is really quiet, keeping really busy. It feels like we are preparing to go somewhere that we know we need to go but don't want to. You know that relative that really bugs ya but invited you over for his B-day. You know you have to go to be nice but you really would rather not. I wish I had a back bone. I wish sometimes I could be a real a$$. I am so pitiful I feel like if somebody stabbed me I would apologies for getting my blood on them...
Here is what I am leading up to. I started feeling sorry for W. She has not had you people to talk to. She has no idea what we are in for this week end. I do think she knows what she did was wrong. She must think that somehow it is going to come up this weekend in front of people. Now I know this is not true but she does not. She has to be nerves. She has to be a little scared of what people will say or think. She is not in total Fog anymore. Maybe a little but she has not been acting like she has done nothing wrong. I am trying not to feel sorry for her. I am trying (for lack of better words) Enjoy this. Enjoy her finally feeling some of the feelings I have felt this last year. I guess its 1 last 180 for me. To not always try to make things "better" at my expense. I will tell you what. I am not her and I have never cheated. (Thought of it.) Maybe even fantasized a little but never cheated) If I were in her shoes right now I would be thinking to my self. What the hell was I thinking? That little time of pleasure is not worth the stress I am going through now. It's time to pay up...
Waiter bring me my tag....
Later H
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
