Well it has been 2 full days of no contact with the W. This is some sort of record for me, one that I hate but it is what it is. It is hard as heck not to just pick up the phone to just see how she is doing
I still can not get the whole OM out of my head, I have been writing a journal of my feelings and that helps for a while but then it comes back again.
Tomorrow is spposedly the big day where she goes to meet with the L and I am nervous as heck. I am getting ready to go to the gym and take my frsrations out on the weights, and planned a full day of paintball for sunday where I plan to punish those who stand in my way!!! Hopefully all this will help some of the pain!
