Thanks for the prayers, Cat. I'm not very religious, but sortof spiritual, if you will, though I was raised Catholic. Lately I find myself praying, which seems strange to me. I pray for strength & patience, I pray for H to wake up, I pray for OW to get fed up, usually all in one go.

I don't know what is going on w/ H & OW, but I suspect that there is alot of crying and hand wrenching going on. I suspect that there is alot of guilt and frustration. I want to be the polar opposite of that - I want to be the happy, beautiful, sexy, secure, fun person. I want to be the place where H feels relaxed & safe. I want to give H what OW gave him in the beginning of their A. I want to be so fabulous that H will look at OW & wonder what he ever saw in her.

I'm still praying...

FA

What does not destroy me, makes me stronger.

FA:43, H:42
D:7
M:10 yrs, T:24 yrs
EA:?, PA:1/06
S:3/07
EA/PA ongoing
Aborted attempt to move home 07/08