she called me about lunch today. my stomack was in knotes, but I dressed up and acted upbeat. she gave me a hug when she arived and we walked to a pizza place. we made small talk. she brought up all the fun stuff she doea now, O and how she got writen up at work for wearing to reveling of a top. she also got writen up for being rude to co-workers. this may sound dumb but she njust dosent get it. she did ask what I thought about us as we havent talked in a while. i said
" well I'm using this time apart as a real self reflectuion time. weather I'm inproving for us or for myself I feel i am steadly re-finding myself. I have a lot to work on but im takeing it a day at a time"
fior some reason I dont think she wanted to hear that as the topic got changed. shes moving at the end of the month as her 'good friend" is selling her place and she wants out kitchen table now. I told her no problem. I alsio brought up we are spliting the money so we should talk again about that and she asked if I want to see a movie tonight. So after i type this I am texting her times. more later
