WAW is full steam ahead

[LosingSunshine]

Okay Phx, you got me laughing with that last post. First time all day. So a big thanks out to you.

SC, to summarize, I did some snooping on Tuesday and found three books that W had hidden(Straight Girls Guide to Sleeping with Chicks, Awakening Virgin, and Is it Coffee or Just a Date - The gay girls guide to dating). Now, ever since the bomb drop, W has been hanging out all the time with her friend who happened to start having R issues with her partner shortly after my bomb (unrelated I hope). They are either over at their place, our place or at the gay bar in town.

I do not know if the books are being read by her for her, or just to gain an understanding of her new friend???? But it does answer why she has repeatedly stated that she can't love me the way I should be loved. I have not confronted her with what I found and don't want to. I don't know if she will bring it up either. I do know that she said the other night that she has other issues (outside of the issues that led to the bomb) that she and only she can work through.

As for it being a dealbreaker...I don't honestly know. It is just adding to all of the pre-existing issues, emotions and confusion and add the fact that she wants out as fast as possible, I am at whit's end!!!!

As for abuse as a kid, I am not really sure. I know her dad was and is an alcoholic and somewhat verbally/physically abusive with her mom but have never heard of any sexual abuse from her, of course that could have been repressed and now is unleashed. Her dad came from a large family and all but a few are pretty much dysfunctional.

To the point of "mixing it up"...she did bring something like that up when were dating and it was something that was never followed through on :-( and never brought up again.

Ugh! She sent an email to me wanting me to drop her cell line from our joint account. Sat on it for 30 minutes before responding. I feel like I am going to get hen-pecked over the next 90 days like this.