Thanks-problem is he doesnt act as if I am the enemy-he is really sweet and considerate when we talk;though very nervous if I mention feelings eg Me"so have you got some meaning back into your life ; are you content?" Him"it varies- I am still whirling around"?!!?He is and always has been a master of controlling and hiding his feelings I am the total opposite.Wish I could control my thoughts and stop over analysing. I lurch between"he is away probably with OW and doesnt give a damn about me " and " He must be thinking about me I spent half of his life with him and honestly kept my vows to love,honour and obey how can he do this and sleep at night? etc"I am stronger than last year at this time when I nearly had a real breakdown but still full of fear and anxiety.How can I best negotiate what I need to live financially,keep relations friendly ,and indicate that I am moving on with my life but havent given up on us? Dont suppose you could fly over to England for our meeting next week ? (joke) Thanks for posting. Hope when all this is over I will be able to support others.
