Mulesqb - Can the sun shine on a donkey's a$$?

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Journal - Sorry for the emotion last night. Every now and then something gets to me. Last night my S10 asked me why Mommy wouldn't eat dinner with them. I asked what he meant. I got home late (I was GAL'n with my brother - went to Yankee game -I'm a Mets fan and then played golf and had dinner). He said my W made them Mac n Cheese and set them up in the kitchen. Then she went down the street to our pizza place and got herself a personal pie and came back. When she returned, instead of eating in the kitchen with the boys she went out on the back deck and ate by herself. That bothered the boys.

When he told me that story i asked myself - what could be going on inside her that would make her want to eat alone than with her sons. She had pretty much avoided them all day up to that point. It made me sad and brought out the feelings last night. I kept asking myself why is she going through this and look what it is doing to everybody. She's lost a ton of weight, I've lost a ton of weight - the boys are sad and her family is on the outside looking in - this can't be what she really wants - tattoos and belly rings??? It got me thinking about old times.

Feeling better today. We have baseball tonite (she's not coming - not interested), so i look forward to it.