I think your frame of mind will be fine. I like your husband's response. It is true, you two can't get there soon enough.
Retrouvaille is a very involving experience. I am confident that they will capture your attention without any necessary meeting with OM first.
To me, this desire you are experiencing is your mind trying to pull a fast one on you and get you to fail just when you are likely to succeed.
You said goodbye to OM, and as I recall he said something lovely like "Just get the F^*& out of my life". Are you looking for more lovely parting words?
