BS in Information Technology, but I have been doing it for 15 years so everything is sooooooooooo boring. I feel like I'm teaching the class, but I have to do all this work.
Quiet time, well that isn't going to happen tonight.
I would sometimes take my quiet time on the way home from work. Me time. You know just stop at a store. Or stop at the pub and have a beer. Take the long way home sometimes.
Then you get the third degree if you were 15 minutes later than you should have been. I lived with a tyrant. I'm starting to realise that now. It's always been about her, and now it's even more about her. I think its helping me detach.
Last night was a rough one thought. I kept waking up and thinking about her. I just clinched my rosary and said a prayer and I fall back to sleep.
This morning well all morning seem rough for me, like I'm in the funk of despair. Then in the afternoon things are better. Then I'll probally get anxiety before she drops the kids off, then I'll get anxiety when she picks them up.
Life isn't getting any easier for me either. I have had this attorney calling me from corporate trying to find data on three peoples computers. I provided her with the data but she can not open it. Then she asks me to look at the data and see if I can find a particular conversation. I said I'm not going to do that. Then she sucks me and I tell her I don't and can't find anything. Then she says well you might have to testify to that matter, because I can't rely on you telling me that information is there or isn't.
I was like look lady. I am trying to help you. I am the IS guy. I help everyone the best I can. Do not suck me down in your pit. I don't not have strength to deal with this, I'm dealing with a possible divorce and my wife just left me two months ago. Do not even try it.
