Puppy- That may be something you didn't want to share. I understand.
Last night H and I talked and talked. We both keep saying that we may not have had the beginning relationship like most, but maybe we can get that now???? We keep saying that we are still together and that has got to mean something. AFter all of this, we are still together. It has to be more than our S because honestly having him see this "friend relationship" cannot be good modeling as to what a marriage is. I thought about the whole codependency or enmeshment thing going on. I don't feel like I need him to be happy, I want to be happy with him. I know I can live on my own.
I still have thoughts of the OM and what I may have lost there. YEs, part fantasy, but part reality. There were things about him that H will never be able to do because it is a diff personality type. I do think that if I hadn't been married yet and I was out dating men, including OM and H, H would not win out. Funny thing is, H said last night that if I put him on equal ground as the OM, with no baggage of the past, he'd have more of a chance. Hmmmmm.......not sure.
