I understand what you are saying, and that you don't want to hurt someone else the way that X hurt you. But BH and Trip are right, this is NOT the same situation.
You've learned and grown a lot through the DBing process, and one of the most important things you have learned is to take care of your own happiness first. There's a terrific guy out there that WILL ring all your bells, and vice versa - give yourself permission to take it slow and find him!
Thread #10 22 year M, MLC, Piecing since 1/07 Goal: Live with confidence & enthusiasm!