Trouble DB'ng Again..How Do I Forget?

[bluerain]

I know what you mean about sleeping alone. I wish that I could just feel his body next to mine, or the warmth of him in our bed. Really, Im not sure how it makes me feel to say this, but you sound like you are moving to a pretty good place, like you are ready to be okay with or without him.

Have you invited him to bed with you? With the understanding that he might say no, if you time it right, he might not. If you do it playfully, even if he says no you might be able to play it off. Do something like come up to the bathroom door when hes getting ready to go to his bed and say: Wanna see what I learned on the internet today? No? Hmm, then get outta here so I can take a cold shower, Ill leave the door unlocked if you change your mind... You get the idea, something that will make you feel sultry and fun and even if he says no, you can walk away with a coy smile, knowing that you are one hot mama!

hey, if you burn your journal entries he cant find them, do you like to keep them or reread them? I find that its cleansing to get the thoughts out and then let them go. What do you think his reasons for wanting to stay are? Maybe they are selfish, but is that better than him not wanting to stay at all? Maybe his selfish motives are enough to buy you time to figure out what you need.

I have a few friends who seem to bounce from man to man, it seems like they dont love themselves, and if you dont love yourself, how can you expect someone else to love you? What can you do to make you feel great about yourself? Something to make you feel proud and accomplished might help you feel independent and may just catch your H's eye.

What do you want your girls to gain from this? Maybe instead of looking at it as how you are screwing them up you could take this as a chance to teach them something incredible about strong women. Not that I can tell you how to do that, but think about it.