The first 12 threads were on Newcomers. Then I realized I have been there twice as long as most of the "veterans" over there. The basics of my sitch are pretty typical. The details are up there. I am less than 2 weeks away from D being final, and there will be no last-minute reprieve this time. So this seemed to be the most appropriate home for me now. W and I don't interact much any more but it is not hostile in any way. I am moving on - literally. From Maine to Pennsylvania this September. I have accepted that I will be single soon and in many ways am looking forward to a new and fresh start. I'm optimistic about my future, even as I am still sad and angry about the events leading to the end of my precious M.
The thread title is still from Patty Griffin's "Mad Mission":
It's a mad mission Under difficult conditions Not everybody makes it To the loving cup It's a mad mission But I got the ambition Mad, mad mission Sign me up
Reaching for the loving cup again. As crazy as things have been, I still think loving and being loved is the most important mission in life. I am prepared to do everything I can to make it part of mine again. Sign me up.
Me45 W35 M6 T8 D16 SD11 D0 Dec 07: Bomb July 08: Busted! Thread
You know, my D5 prays, every night for, and I quote, "daddy to know we love him, that You love him, to come back home, please put the right choices in his heart." She is a little tiny thing with a voice as soft as an angel--there ae alleged pics in an alternate universe to see her.
How can a benevolent God not want to honor that request, even if it is in his own time? SO for now, with God's help, I continue to work on becoming the wife my H needs while God works on H to be the husband and father this family deserves.
SMW
M40/H36 T16/M14 4K B2/08 S4/08 current
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. I Corinthians 13:7
You know, my D5 prays, every night for, and I quote, "daddy to know we love him, that You love him, to come back home, please put the right choices in his heart." She is a little tiny thing with a voice as soft as an angel--there ae alleged pics in an alternate universe to see her.
How can a benevolent God not want to honor that request, even if it is in his own time? SO for now, with God's help, I continue to work on becoming the wife my H needs while God works on H to be the husband and father this family deserves.
She is precious, SMW. I wonder what your H would say if he heard her say those prayers? I've allegedly seen those photos and she is adorable. I've not figured God out yet. When I do, I'll let you know.
Speaking of D's, I keep meaning to mention - my own darling D14 dyed her hair purple. Not the whole thing, but streaks in the front. I have to say, I think it actually looks nice. But she's not my precious baby any more!
Me45 W35 M6 T8 D16 SD11 D0 Dec 07: Bomb July 08: Busted! Thread
I know the one night he was here an it was near bedtime, she had D16 come say prayers with her after H left. I asked her why and she said "cause Daddy isn't ready to hear my prayers, God will tell us when he is." Gott a love that reasoning!
I know I got a good looking bunch of heathens. My secret confession is, while I love all of them, my two favorites to spend large chunks of time with are D16 and S2. The other two wear me out because they want to go and do all the time.
What is your little girl like? What does she think about you moving closer to her? You guys will be able to have regular weekends together now!
SMW
M40/H36 T16/M14 4K B2/08 S4/08 current
Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. I Corinthians 13:7
