WAW is full steam ahead

[LosingSunshine]

So I tried going dark and it lasted 4 hours. After work, furing dinner, and getting the kids ready for bed was easy. I left to go read, came home, tucked daughter in and went to my room. W came in and wanted to talk about key points for mediation:custody, alimony, cs, childcare and the money. She's not out to get me and we agreed on everything. She even agreed to coparenting counseling. Once again I felt trapped as it was have this discussion or get served, which would lead to no good.

So unleash the 2x4s if need be. I do feel more at ease and finding it easier to detach. W is surprised how unlike me that I am. She asid that she was scared and afraid that I either would not talk or would be angry. Does this help me? She decided not to push for full custody because of my changes so that's good right?

Lot's of validation and listening in the talk and I told her I just want her happy even if that means is getting a D. She teared at that point as I almost did too.
I am torn as to whether I should have allowed the talk but felt damned either way.

She did say she wanted to talk about other things tomorrow if I am around and I said sure as long as it is non d related. I feel she is holding back something and that the talks last night and tonight had to happen first. Guess i'll find out but maybe it's nothing.

The other complicating factor in this is that she might be having questions about her sexuality. I can't confront her about this, at least yet, and feel that if time was on my side, things could work out. I don't want to throw in the towel but don't know how this impacts everything. Is it similar to Om issues, mlc issues...just don't know and could use some thoughts on this.