Trouble DB'ng Again..How Do I Forget?

[water2moon]

Hi Blue, I do pray to god every night for strength..And I have started journaling..but H always finds my journals so I start a new one. I really need to DB and start focusing on me. Do I want H or do I just feel that I need him? I've gone from one serious relationship to the next in my life and I think i have a fear of not having a man in my life. Possibly cause my dad walked out on us when I was 13 to move in with a 20 yr old.Adults sure do know how to mess kids up..Now I'm afraid that i'm doing the same to my own precious girls..I know H does NOT want to seperate or get a Divorce..But I'm afraid his motives right now are a bit selfish..i want a husband, not a roomie who pays my bills..I bought some Tylenol Pm to take tonight. He left for work and i'll be alone again..Hate sleeping alone, hate his schedule..But I suspect he likes not sleeping near me..