Help! New to this...still hoping for R

[Rusty]

Tink - where have you been??? You are again right on. H actually did call yesterday and I was very nice and upbeat, sounded happy to hear from him, not angry that he hadn't called before. It was a good conversation, about the orientation for S and then he started talking about this coming weekend (which is his weekend with kids) and how he wanted to go to his HS reunion 2.5hours away. Now, mind you, he has had no contact with anyone from his HS for probably 22 years. It really irks me - and of course I'm thinking he is going to try to hook up with someone. Plus, it means he won't see D again for another weekend. I just said that of course it was not a problem, I would change my plans and have the kids with me. Inside I was screaming - but I did really well!!
I am very angry that he, all of a sudden, has this need to go back to hang out with people he doesn't even know and obviously didn't care enough about to maintain a friendship. I'm angry that he takes all this time and money for what I think is so ridiculous while I can't afford to go to my HS reunion and the only reason I am going to my dad's family reunion is because he really wants me to and is paying for it. How pathetic is that, that at 48 years old, I still can't pay for myself! And I always come back to the fact that this wouldn't be this way if we were together.
Just my vent - I did so well with him and I really do believe you are right that he was pretty sure he would get a nasty reaction and he even said he was surprised by my by the way I answered the call.
I need to get going on a project or I'm going to go crazy!!