W called to talk about the support papers she needs to get filed and wanted to know how I felt. We argued about it last weekend, but I made it a bigger deal than it really is to me. (backslide) She needs the help and had told me last week she doesn't want anyting from me. But today she wanted to know my feelings and how to handle the sitch. D13mo is leagly mine but not biologically, so leagly I am responsible. I WANT to be responsible, to help. I told her to file the papers and we can take it one step at a time, making the decisions together. I think she has been very impressed with the way I have been acting and communicating with her. Some very positive behavior. She even said ILY in the middle of the conversation.
Its funny, it just hit me, she said she couldn't stant to lose my friendship and that was all she felt for me right now. I told her last weekend that I couldn't do that. That I couldn't not be with her and the girls and still be her friend. It will still be hard but why would she want to be with me if I cant even be her friend? And that is what she wants and needs right now.
