i think you need a mediator to protect yourself right now- even if this doesnt go through- your children's best interest must be kept #1. you need to ask for what you want and it needs to be reasonable...for both sides. do you think that would help? i cant imagine trying to figure this out on your own and i dont think its safe for you to try on your own either... it will be ok.
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