I'm here. Did good yesterday. No talks. He came, I had cooked (he eats with us on the weeknights when he visits the girls since he comes straight from work). He said it was good and thanked me for the meal. I then left to grocery shop. I came home just as he was putting D6 to bed, so I went in hugged and kissed her ,and then went back to the garage to load in groceries.
He came out to help me. I told him he didn't have to, but he said he didn't mind. So he helped me load in the bags. Then I told him I had gotten something for him at the store for his drive home. He always grabs a bottled water when he leaves, so I got him a Vitamin Water (he loves those things) while I was at the store. HE said thanks, and then left.
Blah.
Bad discussion though over the High School Musical tickets. I brought it up, and said that I'd changed my mind and I would like to take D6 (he had offered me the tickets on Sunday, when I brought up that I wanted to buy them, but he already had). To which, he had since decided that he took the offer back. Nice. I told him I thought it was kind of crappy since he KNOWS that that is My and D6's thing. We have watched HSM1 and 2, we have the cd, a Karaoke cd, we dance and sing all the songs. It's so OBVIOUSLY something that would be something I should do with her. I admit that I'm pissed because he KNOWS it would mean more to me, but he KNOWS she is going to love it, and I feel like he is in this "I'm the fun Dad" mode now.
Everytime he has the girls..... it's swimming, or eating out, or buying them treats at the store, or taking them for icecream, or going to putt putt etc....... meanwhile, all I hear over and over is how broke we are, so I don't spend money at all (other than bills, groceries and gas). So I'm here taking care of the house, taking them to Dr.s appts, playing around the house etc, and when they go with Dad they get spoiled.
It's all so typical. The anger is settling in and I don't like it. I love him ,and still pray that his heart will be touched to try, but for now I think I'm finally in a mode for detaching.
Chris
__________ Me:39 H:39 D:8 D:4 M:9 (T 13) Bomb 4-5-08, H moved out 6-16-08, Reconciled and H moved back in 5-31-09 Still doing GREAT a year later!!!
