Bring on the Rain - Part 3

[SueS]

Hi everyone-

lwb & Rob, you are right. I do need to take the wheel and just start asking the questions & telling H what's going on with ME.

H came home on Monday night a bit late from work. When he got home, D4 and I were on the bed reading. I was laying down. H came up next to me and kind of rubbed my leg. I just looked up at him with a blank face. He said....Fine, if you don't want me to touch you I won't. What does he expect? Last night he decided it was time to dip into the wine. He drank nearly 1 & 1/2 bottles by himself between about 7-11. D4 was laying down with me. H came in the bedroom to ask if I wanted him to sleep in the bedroom with me. He was drunk. I told him that him sleeping in our room was his choice. He asked again and I repeated myself. He got mad and left the room mumbling something. He slept on the futon. To be even more of a man-child, he turned a picture of us over that he has sitting on his shelf in the den. Real mature. He does that because he knew that it used to upset me....must think that it still does. I used to sit it back upright, but I don't bother any more.

I called this morning after I got to work to talk to D4. H snapped at me with a "What do you want"!, when he answered. I talked to D4, who made me laugh. I went home for lunch and grabbed the mail. There was a handwritten envelope from a local home builder. It was addressed to Mr. & Mrs. SueS. So, I opened it. It said.....Dear H and Stacy, so nice to meet you this past weekend.....etc. Well, OW's name is not Stacy. H called me for something and I said, Hey, by the way, do you know a Stacy? He said, No, but I wish I did. I told him about the note. He was quiet, but denied knowing any Stacy. He did not deny going to the home builder...but I didn't ask. Funny that they'd send a handwritten note to our address & in his name....by accident. I kicked myself for not just leaving the note out for H to see and for telling him about it. I should have left it be.

Work has been busy, so that's good. D4 has been good. She had a tough time adjusting from a week of having whatever she wanted, whenever she wanted it at Grandma & Grandpa's to the structure of daycare. She's doing better now. She picked up an expression from my dad, which I told her is not exceptable in our house. My dad is about 70 yrs old and is not a particularly religious man. Unlike my mom, who taught us that using God or Jesus' name in vain isn't proper, my dad uses certain expressions whenever he wants. My mom warned him to try to be careful with what he says around D4 but I guess she overheard him a few times. The other night she was carrying a few things to her room and dropped something. Out of her mouth pops.....Oh, for Christ sake!! Grandpa got a phone call!! He said, well at least she used it in the right context.

Well, better sign off for now. Have a great day everyone.

SueS