Looking for support from other WAS's

[lost3031]

I'm still hanging in there. Some days I feel terribly strong, and other days I feel like I'm barely hanging by a thread. H and I have been spending more time together in the last two weeks, and I think that's probably good. So why does it make me feel scared? And why do I feel a little angry with him? When I first left, he showed no interest in spending time with me. For the past 4 1/2 months he has rejected the notion of spending time together, and now suddenly he's making the effort to find time for me in his busy schedule. I know all of the psychological reasons for his actions, and I don't blame him for reacting the way that he did or for feeling the way that he does. Still, I feel like I'm suddenly in a tailspin and I can feel myself beginning to go into panic mode. I love him and we can still have fun together - I enjoy being with him, so I don't understand why I feel like I'm being suffocated by his sudden presence. Is it still too soon for me? Is this a normal feeling?

(Thanks for checking on me, lodo!)